Today I have turned 27 years old and there is not just that to celebrate. Just over 1 year ago I returned from travelling to a very turbulent and hard time in my life. It has probably been the hardest time in my life and I have had some very low points in the last year.
However, instead of focusing on all that negative I choose to focus on the positive and I always try to do that with my blog. Its has been hard to blog the last week or so having no internet and have used twitter a lot and will continue so follow me on there @adandelionmind.
I have so much to celebrate on this weekend and here is a little list:
1. I have moved into my own place
2. I have started a new job teaching a difficult special needs class but starting to love my class
3. I have managed to overcome so much in the last year to show me I am a confident and strong lady
4. I had a chat with my sister and made a reconnection to build a more positive relationship
5. I have some amazing friends who love me dearly
6. I have met someone new who I feel really likes me and I like him
In all this weekend I feel like a very lucky girl.
This weekend - my birthday.
Due to having my new place I decided to have friends from all over to come and stay at mine. Yesterday one of my friends from uni came over earlier and we did a little shopping and catching up. Back at my house I baked my favourite muffins and then cooked Chilli Con Carne with rice and nachos for everyone. I had 6 friends from different parts of my life: Uni, teaching and Guiding. It was so lovely to have people over and enjoy spending time with them because they were there for me.
After dinner we got ready and got a taxi into Nottingham. I love going out into Nottingham. It has something for everyone, wear pretty much anything and do not have to walk far to get from one bar to the next. The five bars we went into had music from current songs to blues to rock to 90's music to salsa. We did not dance as much as what I wanted but it was great to be out and having an amazing time. I was not even really worried about drinking of which I had a lot of cocktails last night.
Today we got up and I cooked bacon and egg sandwiches for breakfast as such a good breakfast after being out. Was not too hungover just tired really as had not gone to bed until 4am. We went to a pub I really like that does some lovely food and was my choice for my birthday lunch. My mum has popped round after my friends left and was pretty flat and I am trying to not get upset by her lack of love shown through emotion. She shows her love through money which I really hate but that is the way she is.
I have felt very lucky with my friends being here as they were all here for me. I feel valued and worthy of having people that care for me. I had such fun with them and felt like this is the start of something new and so exciting. My friends are my family because as a family we are not close and I do not open up to my mum. The ups and downs of last year seem to be disappearing. The worry of going back to being so ill and depressed is even going. I do not worry half as much as I used to. Having my own place I no longer live in fear. I know I still have anxiety issues and I am still taking medication for that but I feel like I have made a huge jump in the last two weeks.
So here is a drink for me (a lovely handmade cosmo in my favourite cocktail bar). To an amazing birthday, best friends I could have and the start of hopefully a much better year.
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